暴风雨前的宁静是阴险，恐怖的。。。
但暴风雨后的宁静却是温暖，温馨的。。。

今天的我的心已经死了一半了。。。

最近的天气怪怪的。。。阴阴的。。。一直在下雨。。。
这雨下得我的心都跟着阴了好几天。。。这几天我带着依然接受不到事实的心情在过日子，
不过昨天的我还算过得开心。。。看着一班对我很不错的朋友。。。
一个我们住一起四年了的朋友， 那感觉真的好得不懂怎样形容。。。
仿佛我的明天又多了一道光，起码我们都依然想念着我们曾经一起有过的生活，好怀念好温软。。

不懂为何最近的我总是这么容易的有感触。。。或许是我开始意识到自己孤独吧。。。
有首歌在唱说英雄总是孤独。。。英雄是寂寞的。。。是吗？？可我不是英雄啊。。。
不过狗熊一只拿什么谈孤独。。。haiz...
要简单的过生活还真不简单。。。

how can you denied all my putting efforts by just a so simple and single word "F"...
Maybe i've done not well but that doesn't mean that i don understand or i'm wrong...
Do you know, this "F" maybe bring not much meaning to you but it brings "DOOM" into my life...

the confidence that i've built up through hard works, through hard days, difficult times...just being crashed up so easily by just a single alphabet...too bad...so sad...

am i really that weak that can be crashed off so easily..????
can anyone tell me...
i've trtied to calm myself for a whole day for facing this single alphabet but when the time passes...i realized that i can do nothing...
i just can't get through it...what am i suppose to do????

My Almighty God...where are you to clam me now???
i need your strenght, i need your wisdom, i need your help.
At least i need to feel you by my side now for my soul's safetyness...
i'm really hurt...
is this the feel of broken heart???

At this moment i just don wan to talk or doing anything...
Please, just leave me alone...i just need to be alone...
and sorry for if i've hurt you i really don meant to hurt you...
but you know, just that with my deepest love for you...
i need you to be stronger with me...
That's all what i need...let the loneliness fulfilled my heart's broken hole...

今天的我恨透了。。。为什么？？？！！！我本来考完试很高兴的。。。
但为什么却要在这个时候，难得我这么有信心。。。为什么还是会。。。这次更惨！！！ 既然是F!!!...我真的不能接受。。。我接受不到。。。


算了。。。也许我需要一个人静一静。。。

时间不会让人不痛。。。时间只会让人习惯了痛。。。你是不痛了吗，还是习惯了痛呢 ？？。。。
人人都说时间可以冲淡一切。。。是真的吗？？

我们一起开始读书，但我却是最后一个毕业。。。是好事还是坏事呢。。。
我应该给与祝福吧。。。但在祝福的同时的我的心是如何的感受呢？？。。。

柯有伦-零

零。。。

从来不相信我的世界可以有多完美
痛苦寂寞 还有一些疲惫
不允许他人随意进入我的零度空间
宁愿孤独 懒得再去想谁
两个人一起是否只是得到一种安慰
挣脱过去 然后忘记一切
没想过有天我的结局忽然全部改变
谁会抓住 我的无力双臂
怎么会哭 谁错谁对 为谁抱歉
不会再哭 谁错谁对 为谁憔悴
走入零度空间 等到一切分裂
就算爱的危险 我们一起面对
来不及的防备 没听过的誓言
要我怎么学会 多了爱的明天
走出零度空间 终于一切分裂
就算爱的很累 我却不会后悔
放下所有防备 一切都无所谓
逃出黑暗世界 开始新的明天
新的明天
新的世界

真的会有新的世界吗？？？
新的明天还要我等多久？。。。

just the moment i'm playing Dota All-star (Defense of the Ancients)with my new housemates here...i'm thinking with wat my fren's figuring's question...wat's life???

wat life beneaths....sounds like the movie's title...

life's like the playing characters in those game...those hero keep on surviving from gaining experiences...after gaining the experiences until certain lvl then they can proceed to another lvl...
life's just so simple of lvl upgrading...for further wisdom, experience...and knowledge...am i right???...haiz...

really have a long long time din have a break...yo dude i just need a break for fresh airs, deep sleeps, relax and fresh mornings, and so on...

anyway, i'm glad tat i can play a better drum beat, new style of playing rolls...getting more sensitive to music, and sensitive to the flowing tempo of the songs...praise god!!!...how wonderful are the strenght from god...the wisdom and the power...wow it's so great and i really enjoy myself in the music with my playing drum...but can it goes on continuously???

and also i've learned to play new songs with guitar hahaha....

最近的生活都好辛苦哦又好忙。。。都没时间。。。i'm run out of timesSSSSS...
the life's going with the speed like wat's happened in the movie "time and tide" donno wat's going on ...unpredictable...
hope to travel to other places and left everythings behind for a while....
“我突然觉得我好累哦”。。。